Trust is an interesting concept. Trust is something we build up over time and we base it upon our experiences with that person. It is not universal – I may trust a common friend more than a mutual friend does. Once a trust is broken between friends, it is hard to get it fully back. In our humanity, we struggle with fully giving our trust back to someone who violated it.
How much do you trust God? How much do I? Three years ago I entered full-time ministry. I left teaching after 23 years. I felt a call to ministry that had gradually built over many years and I finally surrendered to those whispers of God that I felt in my heart. There was some trust involved – a lot. But there were also some things that made the decision feel safe – same town and church we had been in for 20 years, tons of family and close friend support…
In Genesis 17 God comes to Abram and Sarai when they were 99 years old. As they are ready to slide into retirement, God comes along and tells them they are going to start having babies. He tells them to move to an unknown foreign land. He tells them that they will be the father and mother of many nations and to change their names, accordingly, to Abraham and Sarah. And they did. Trust. They trusted God completely.
I often wonder where my trust level is. It is high? Do I trust God completely? Or is it low? One doesn’t really know until put to the test. God’s call to me was many nudges over a period of time, with a few human voices sprinkled in for good measure. I never heard God’s voice. But if a nudge came to move far away, to a distant place, to minister – how much would I trust? If a nudge came to leave all I know to enter the mission field – where would my trust level be?
I think that if I had a real conversation with God, even if only one-sided, that I would go without question. But then I wonder… I hope I am found faithful. We all do. Lord God, make me faithful.
Scripture reference: Genesis 17: 1-7 and 15-16