Reading: John 13: 21-33
“One of you will betray me”. That must have been quite the bombshell. These twelve men have invested three years of their lives in following Jesus. They have stuck with Him, certainly at a personal cost to their families and other relationships. It has been a sacrifice in other ways as well. Yet at twelve have remained with Jesus to this point.
In our hearts and minds, we each think we are devout to Jesus. Until we are not. How often our faith life is moving along solidly and in an instant we have said or thought something that brought instant conviction? Surely not I, Lord. As life is cruising along well and we feel connected to the Son, we do something and the remorse and guilt come flooding in. Surely not I, Jesus.
In most cases when we have been tempted or stumble into sin, we recognize it quickly. When we are sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit, we realize our sin quickly and repent and seek forgiveness and restoration. Then and there we are brought back into a right relationship with God.
We all are never really far from, “One of you will…”. And like the disciples we can also get lost in our own worlds. When we ourselves are wrestling with temptation or sin or when we have sinned and are struggling with the guilt or our own inability to forgive ourselves, we can be like the eleven – so lost in the ” Is it I?” question that we do not notice the evil around us. The eleven were so inwardly focused that they did not notice Judas leaving.
If we were there we would have noticed and gone after him. Wouldn’t have we? Wouldn’t we? Maybe. It is too easy to think of someone who used to come to church. In our own struggles may we realize that all struggle. In this realization, may we become more aware of our brothers and sisters in Christ, being vigilant to love and care for one another. May we each seek out and help the lost or wandering sheep back into the flock.