Reading: Psalm 13
Verse One: How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
Our Psalm of complaint opens with quite the line: “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever”? It is a place we all have been at times in our lives. In our minds we know that God is always present and that His love never fails, but in our hesrts sometimes we feel like God is absent. We can relate, in our own monents of trial and/or suffering, to the psalmist’s feeling that God is hiding. Of course, this is all our own creation. The Psalm refers to wrestling in our thoughts and this is usually when we think God has been absent – when we were too busy to stop and go to God because we had to solve or fix the ‘problem’. We are sometimes slow to “let go and let God”.
The psalmist pleads with God to “look on me and answer” as he seeks some resolution or end to his struggles. It is a point we eventually get to as well. We finally hit bottom or get to the point of not knowing what else to do and we then turn to God. We admit that our “enemy” has overcome us and we cry out for God to help us. At times, this can look like a ‘we is me’ pity party. Sometimes though, we do try and seek God right away, but it feels as if God is distant. Mother Teresa called the season in her life when she felt far from God even though she was seeking God the “dark night” of her soul. It is a very hard place to be, but sometimes we find ourselves here too.
In the end, in the last two verses, the psalmist returns to the faith that has sustained him before. He recalls trusting in God’s unfailing love and his heart rejoices at the thought of salvation. Instead of complaint, the psalmist sings to the Lord – “for He has been good to me”. These too are choices we can make. May we ever trust in God’s unfailing love and sing our praises to God each dsy, ever remaining close to our God and King.