Reading: Psalm 139: 1-6
Verses One and Three: “O Lord, you have searched me and you know me… You are familiar with all of my ways”.
Our Psalm today speaks of a deep intimacy with God. It reminds me of a best-friend relationship where you finish each other’s sentences and you seem to have this connection so you know what the other person is thinking. But when I think of God, to have such a relationship could only be one-sided. I could never know God so completely. Yes, we can know God well and our knowledge of and intimacy with God can grow as our faith develops, but there will always be so much more to God that we cannot even begin to fathom.
Our psalmist opens with this line: “O Lord, you have searched me and you know me”. The Psalm goes on to say that God knows our every coming and going. God knows all of our thoughts and all of our actions. Verse three finishes with, “You are familiar with all of my ways”. God knows everything there is to know about us. God could finish our sentences even if we only gave God the first word. It is both a beautiful and a scary thought to realize that we are this well known by God.
It is beautiful because it means that God is constantly aware of us. That means God rejoices when we love or serve or care for anther. It means God knows when we extend mercy or grace or forgiveness. It is beautiful because it means that God knows all of the desires of our heart and knows our prayers before we ever put them to words or even think them.
But these thoughts are also scary. God knows the impure or unkind thought before it is ever fully formed in my heart and mind. God knows all the things that I have done and said that I told myself were just my little secrets – no matter how big or how small. Not only does God know my sins, but God knows all of my fears, all of my doubts, all of my questioning, all of the times I was less than God created me to be.
It is a deep, deep intimacy that God has with us. God knew us before we were ever formed in the womb and God knows us inside out all the time. We are fully known. In that thought, I realize how little I know of God and God’s love. In spite of knowing all about us, God loves us anyway – the good and the bad fully included. It is a glimpse into the depth of God’s love for you and me. All we can say is thanks be to God.